I finally dreamt again today. I will give you three different parts of it.

1) I went to the edge of the world this morning. There is an edge. However, it isn't space below. It is trees. Millions and millions of trees. I climbed up this path pf brown carved out of the grass. The hills beside me sloped down and then dropped off completely. I looked out, and I could see were trees. Millions. You could almost see the curvature of the earth slanting upwards, almost as though I was looking through a fish-eye camera lens. I never made it to the tip of the world, though. I was only a few paces away, but it looked unstable. I might break it. I might fall down and down, and the trees wouldn't catch me.

2) I went to a store that sold something. I am still not quite sure what it was. They were like chia pets, but instead of herbs and grass, they grew little people and creatures. You had to water them just like they were chia heads. Little people, little creatures. Amusing.

3) I somehow had gotten a spider attached to my mouth. The spider's abdomen and head were inside my mouth, the legs clung to the outside, on my lips. I tried to push the spider out with my tongue. It looked furry, but it was actually almost slimy. It wouldn't budge when I tried to push it out, so I did the only other thing I could think of: I bit down. The spider tensed up for a moment, then fell down my throat, as though it were a stone dropping down a well.

Then I woke up. I checked for spider legs, but there were none. Damn.

cause if you try to concentrate its rather obvious you arent spinning. However sometimes when im going to sleep I have visions in bed of two things. One is Ill see a couple of lines, kinda like oversized spider webbing, and it floats across the room always twards me and it always freaks me out. The second is sometimes if i stare at the light (very little light at that) coming through the door cracks itll dissapear slowly. Everything in the room goes pitch black too, even though before I stared at the door i could see everything just fine.

almost every night when i'm about to fall asleep, i have the sensation that i am spinning. the blackness inside my head tumbles around inside itself, but if i concentrate on it at all, it stops. why?

i had a bunch of rather disturbing dreams last night, but i can only remember a few of them.

in one, i woke up and walked out of my room. (i was living with my parents) i took a couple steps, looked down, and saw that the floor was completely covered with cockroaches, silverfish, and some other wierd bug. you could hardly see the carpet, there were so many. my mom was trying to kill them, but she'd only get a few and the carpet where they'd been would turn yellowish. i tried to walk down the hall without stepping on any, but i couldnt.

another dream, i dont remember much of, just that i was eating dinner and there was a cockroach on top of everyone's roll, and you were supposed to eat it. i kept thinking how it looked exactly like the roach from my insect collection freshman year.

this one doesnt involve roaches, i swear. i was at my high school, and i was cleaning out my desk. there were two big cans of beer in it. one was like a foot tall and the other was a foot and a half tall. i dont know why i had them, i think that i had found them somewhere and was planning on throwing them away but hadn't had the chance. i was about to put them in my backpack and toss them, when the principal came into the room. i left them there and went out of the room. the principal found one of them, and thought that it belonged to some 4th grader who shared my desk or something. she got in really big trouble, but kept saying it wasnt hers. i went back to the school a while later, sneaking around cause i thought they might have figured out that they were mine. i went to the desk, got the other can out and went to the bathroom. i poured it down the sink and it started a little fire around the drain, which i blew out. i forgot to throw the can away, and i just left it there. i was walking by a classroom and the 4th grade girl started yelling. they pulled me inside and some little kid told everyone that they'd seen me in the bathroom, and that i'd drank the beer. all the little kids moved away and gave me scared looks. i tried to tell them that i poured it down the drain and it wasnt mine anyways, but no one believed me and the teacher was screaming in my face that i was evil.

i dreamed that i finally found a replacement sponge for our soap dispensing dish cleaner sponge do-dad. i was really excited cause i think they stopped making the one we have. i saw the new version online, and in my dream the new version's sponge fit onto our old soap dispensing handle. i was soooooooooooooo excited. but then i woke up, and we still dont have our sponge.

Ever since I was little, I have always wanted to speak Italian, and I still do. I haven't heard many Italians speak, just a couple, and I only know a couple of words. Last night, one of my dreams was set in a language class. Everyone was speaking a language other than English, but now I have no idea what they were saying, even though I understood everything in the dream. I figured it was Italian, since there were maps of Italy in the room and posters about Italian people. In the dream, I was able so carry out several conversations in this language, yet in real life, I can't even form a sentence. It was weird, and like most dreams, it will be put away in the red and white checkered box labeled "unexplained".

Maybe I need a break from my current life, like a trip or something. I have constantly been dreaming about the same person, and I'm in need for a change. Whatever the dream might be about, he's always there. He was at the cafe when I was in a dilemma. He was in the car with me, when I drove my first car. [which I haven't gotten yet, :-)]

Last night, I dreamt about him again. I just remember him being all over the place. I believe the setting was my school , and different groups of people meeting together. Like my camp friends, church friends, college friends, high school friends, and soccer friends against one another. And I say against, because I remember there being some conflict of characters. ahhhh..

my english teacher turned into a minerature rhinocerous and was rampaging in an office building. i trapped her in a meeting room and waited for the police to come. every once in a while she would switch from rhino mode to dr. maccurdy mode, to try and confuse me.

bear with me.... it isn't exactly all clear, but what i do remember went as follows. i was hanging out somewhere, perhaps a house? not mine, at any rate. it was nice happy daytime. then something happened. it turned night... and i was alone. almost in a field. not exactly pitch black, there was a bit of ambient light. i was holding a sort of mask in my hands. the type zorro would wear. i look at it... it has eye holes and a nose hole. at the bottom, words flicker on the material and change: "you will die,"... "the grange," ... some sort of neutral angel escorts me to this place called the grange. he/she told me that my trial would be presided over by the four horsemen of the apocalypse. i couldnt speak... later, when the horsemen showed up, along with other assorted deities, it was dead silent. i somehow found out that i died from a form of explosive diarrhea... and that was it.

i remember bits and peices of my dream last night. the coolest part was that i saw all these girls (including some ones at the elementary school i work at) and they were dancing in the shallows of a big lake or ocean. they called it sea spinning, and they wanted me to join them. we spun around in circles in the water, and our hands made the spray fly up. everyone in the city came to watch

Some of my dreams are very repetitive. Maybe I just don't remember other parts, but it seems to me that it's the same scene over and over again. Last night I dreamed about a certain person that has been on my mind lately. I was at a cafe-like place that's on his school campus with a couple of his friends. Actually I was outside the cafe, and he was inside. And now it all seems so vague but I remember that there was something I needed to ask/tell him and I couldn't find the courage to go in and do it. So I lingered outside, looking at him through the slightly tinted doors. As I mentioned before, the scene was repetitive. At the end of a "scene" I would walk up to the door and then BOOM, it's all back outside again, back to when I can't decide what to do. This happened a number of times, and usually one or two people were added to the group of his friends outside who were trying to get me to decide. I try to remember what I was suppose to ask/tell him, but I can't. I wish I could though.

i was on an airplane. i wasnt a passenger, nor was i a pilot, but i could switch around the view which i saw, if that makes sense. anyway, im looking out the window beside me, and then in front of me. all of a sudden, we burst through clouds, and dive at a shallow angle into the water below. and so, once again, i have died in a dream. i think that makes this my fourth.

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i had a very upsetting dream in which my car was stolen. i was in a city between san diego and san clemente, with ben and stanley. i had tons of stuff in my car cause i was moving still. and it was all stuff like photographs with my grandparents who've died, and other really personally valuable things. i used stanley's cell phone to call the police. it was squishy and folded up. when i talked to the police they didnt really care about it, and they listed off a bunch of car stealings that had happened, and told me i probably wouldnt get my car back. then i had to tell my parents and they got really upset. while i was talking to them, the doorbell rang in real life and woke me up. who ever heard of repairmen coming at 7.58 am?

so... i went to rent some videos. and i got two of them, the titles of which i cant remember. when i get home, my parents point out that the folks at the video store charged me for eight videos. i went back, and my manager from work refunded my money.

i was in some suburbs on a hill. At a cast party for Fiddler on the roof. We were all chillin like villians when the whole house started to shake violently. noone could move a mussle, we knew it wasnt an earthquake cause it came on slowly and then faded away. we went outside to see a HUMONGUS balck alien spaceship. kinda like the big ones in ID4 only a little bigger and flatter. We realised that it was spewing black smoke into the air, and everyone became very sleepy and everyone was dying. I remember the whole world grew silent except I know that me and two others werent effected too badly. The smoke cleared away quickly and I remember it deing deathly silent. but then the producer of fiddler walks in the door with a big smile and starts waking people up off the ground, it was all her idea and hoax. But us at the party were the only ones awake. The party went on, i remember kissing a girl (cant remember who) and thats about it.

i stop and think about what daygo is... then realize.

today i was going into eltorito with my folks. i ask them, "where did we have goat cheese?" my dad responds that we had some sort of cheese at the state fair... but then i realize i dreamt about goat cheese last night.

dont go to bed. i may dream about goat cheese again.